Saturday, April 21, 2007
God is in my heart no matter what...<3 Written at 5:33 AM
Iss'nt tt beautiful?? ^^^ blood-a token of dunno who's love hahax.....i made it! belive it or not i did!! hahas...iam so in to goth now.and i was before did i mention it before? okay wateva okay cotinuing....and i really into these colors:Red,black,pink,purple,lime green,white and brown.hahas...i used to hate black,lime green,brown and black.dunno why but i changed.these few days were rocky...first FRIENDS! wonder y God made us friends?to let us endure in pain and stress?to fight and argue with? to get scolded by?why?! i seriousely need to knoe recently i avoived a certain someone i had a reason to.she was paying too much attention to my other friend which made me felt anoyed I did not tell her but instead i got angry and started disliking her.on the other hand i felt as if thought i had no other friends i acted though i was really hating her when i hanged out with my other friends.friday last period we were in the ino room a friend started avoiding me aqnd the other was entertaning her i was left with one friend which i did not really know.i colud not blame her bt i felt as if thouught no attention was on me.as in i was not seeking attention but but was wanting i friends to actually care bt none of then did.then i said i wanted to go to the toilet but no body cared.instead there all went enternaning my other friend...ar was so fustrating i talk to freda on the way up it did'nt solve my prob.when we went up i burst into anger and said that no body cares.my frienbd gt angry and rushed off.leaving my 2 other friends chasing after her...after stopping...i looked at them angrly and walked away angrly they all asked me to wait but i did nt care beacause thats what they did to me.i said tt nobody ever cares abt my nedds and it was true they only cared abt her! i could blame her mybe they like her mor then we do...i dunno...bt she should'nt had just dun answer my calls tts just wrong.i thought friends should care abt one another this group of friends were different.ind the end isaw her with my soon to be-ex best-friendtalking happily they were fighting at first.but in the end.they made up.tricking me.i cried tt very day..i dunno wats happening to me iam becoming more and more emo(emotional) i dunno maybe its lost in God...i dunno maybe i nedd god's guidence...secondly-studies hahax..first time admitting this- iam studying too much i think! bt tt is gd! anw.....i am worrying too much for my PSLE i dunno what top say...ar i gtg le...falling sicker and sicker each day without anyone caring no REAL friends who really care ar...bye!(: