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I really love God.
I think he's the greatest thing I've had through the years. FRIENDSTER.
Lord i pray for you to be in my life no matter what.
Everything means nothing,but you,you mean the world to me.
Lord, i ask for confidence for everyday life.
I ask for love & peace because i learn that love is better than war.
Peace because i want to be peaceful when i get fired up.
I ask you give me this attitude to appreciate what's given.
I pray that all the people i hold close stay here no matter what.
I just want you lord,fill by life with abundance,i live for you.
For everday,i ask you to be there for me no matter what.
Last,but not least,i pray for my family.
I pray that they will stay close no matter what,that they will support each other,through Christ values.
Amen.
Hello i feel like i have no privacy in my house.like literaly?Just now when i was looking at nicholas cage's pic?I saw it on some person's lj? My mother went like why got boy pics?Then iw as like why? cannot ah,as if i am hiding a bf from you?Wth lah,as if i can't see a photo of a guy-.-" .I dont know nowww,my mom is starting to be soo irritating.Especially when she goes on nagging at me how she really wants me to be like as a teenager,maybe she should be me instead luh.I bet she even reads my blogger luh.I think she does,i regret telling her EVERYTHING.even my the boys i once liked,she knows all.I still love my mummy buttt i feel that soemtimes she does'nt understand!Is this how most teens feel?I heard her telling my dad yesterday after we had a fight.She was like"Ever since she began secondary school,she became so REBELIOUS!" that really made me think,was i being a little too much? rebelious?I dont know yeahhh.It's just taht at times i say a sentence what normal kids these days would say,&&& she would think i'm saying something bad!Whats her prob?I do not have attitude problems,its bad enought i have people who bring my very low self esteem down.Now she wanna make my life at home more worst?I think her generation & mine is VERYYYYY extremelyy far apart! & she thinks i'm super valgur can.Okay,i do speak vulgar words but i try no to right?heyyy thats good lor.She wants me to potray like this superr guai girl who talks to her like an angel infront of my friends.UGHHH o the other hand my father does not undertsand too,always screaming lahhh they all.No wonder my temper's not good.I seriuosly want a happy familiy,i trying my best to not turn into a trashy teen who does not care about a shit about their family,really,i'm trying! Buttt its hard kay,sometimes you cant control you feelings.Whatever,i'm feeling far awaya from god.One thing i've realised.Ever since sec school started i lost my that click with god,seriously i have.Now whenever i worship,i can really tell now that i dont mean it.I knew this would happen,now i dont know what to do.So far,i think praying about it is not gonna work.Tell me how?I feel that the holy spirit in me gone & like not wanting to come back to me cus my ehart's not sincere at all.What should i do?
Okay ,so today's chinese new year! wooo hoo! GONG HEI FAT CHOI!(: loved today.Felt happy?mommy said i could only keep $30 of all angbaos luh! so unfair ass man! went visiting.Went to great aunt first,i loved her food! I'm feeling fat today! i wish i was stick thin!!!!! ass i am not! anwywas,angbao!!!! gonna go bugis to buy my i like music top,need a shopping partner! but i still cant find one yet.I'm thinking meisi? but she cant go out one lehs! uhhsh,after that went great great grand ma's got angbao from people i do not know.Saw not close cousins,they look so pretty.I liek one of them's dresses.I felt like a loser near them for idk why reason.Okay so after that headed to grandma's place.She was sick:( awwww i love her! her food rockkkkssss too(: ate alot noww i feel stupit&fat.&&& i wanted to go swimming!&&& now i'm eating meggi meeeee! wahalo,fatness yozzz!(: uhs i think i feel like i'm falling sick.I coughed alot! so i better like sleep soon.Cts are coming(next week) & i havent study yet.Geog is boring,history is not reaching my interest yett,chinese is soo cheem i cant't under stand a shit the teacher talking! Maths quite easy! omg. err science(bio) is interesting.English is still boringg English.I can bet i will fail D&T cus i dont know the format for candy tray?&I think i'm gonna fail art& i think i'm failing everything...hopefully i can go on to sec2.I cant wait for next week! Monitor results! hopefull,it's me.BYEEE(: Reunion dinner pics another day when i get all the pics up loaded into photobucket.Dammlong yeahh.omg so hard to use lj cut!:D hohohos(: