Monday, March 17, 2008
It hard,but I'll try. Written at 4:44 AM
Hello,I'm finally thirteen.Yesterday,16th March 2008 was my birthday!Yayness,I enjoyed it so much.It was much of a celebration but people do actually care about it.I love them for it.I havent uploaded the pics so yeah,next time i'll blog about it.
TODAY!
Today was love too,quite a few people wished my happy birthday i was quite touched yeah.Last night i talked to Neysa about friendships.We really learnt from one another & concluded one very good reasons why friendships don't lasts sometimes.I once admitted to myself,I don't believe in best friends.The reason to it,the world is so catched up with popularity&fame that betrayal just gets a hold of us all.I learn't from life that,at the end of the day you just can't trust anyone but yourself.I know this may be hurting to some of my friends,but I am sorry.For me,you gotta understand that it is hard for me to trust anyone but myself cus the hurt was just too big or it is just a belief.The part about i don't believe in best friends,Neysa once told me this"Don't ever have best friends cus you will be hurt." I agree cus it's happened to me before.I know I have best friends etc etc.But I'm taking a risk,a hug risk.have you ever heard of this,"The greatest risk in life is not taking any risk."I find that exceptionally true.All I am trying to express&say is that sometimes people just hurt you too much for you to even trust yourself once again.As Neysa tell it,"Once Bitten,Twice Shy." which is kinda true cus that happens to me quite alot.Suddenly,after all this I realised one thing,really good friends are those who execpt that you dont trust them yet try to let you trust them.True friends are those who actually really care from their bottom of their hearts.They true friends know they'll never ever hurt you knowing you'll remember it for the rest of your life.They will never leave you,even if it's a million miles away.Unfortunately,there's no perfect friend.So yes,we must accept those imperfections God gave to us who some of them turn to become besties.Besties are God given angels i tell myself whenever i get pissed with them.So Neysa,take this as a word of encouragement.Myabe your friend just doesn't feel the same again.But you can really trust me.Yes,i promiss.Call me when you're bored or just cream my name liek you always do on msn.I know it's hard to trust someone but,you can try by praying.Faith&trust go together well,so pray.Idk why i suddenly be so counsellorish but it's true,it shock me all of a sudden but pray,you know prayer can move mountains!Yes,so please pray about it if you want you're friendship with her don't ruin.Don't be pissed lah!Even if this is gonna be a hurting process,remember God& loves you! & I love you too! :D Sooner or later you'll soon realise the real her!Hahas wise words i say wise words!So yeah today was superr sian can.I had no moood to study only to talk crap i became so siao,talked to jamie about hottaye woohooo!haha! Sharan,omggg i cant believe it! you're seriosu.zomggg,gosh i'm afraid very afraid.Hopefully is okay now,i wished we were friendsSharan,only you know who i'm talking about.DON'T TELL NO ONE.ohkay,so yeah thenduring after school stuff Cherisse was soo damm funny! Jamie is nice to talk to! Omg cherisse &I were liek making fun of mas selamat & Calling some people DLP! only we know what it means,hahahahs! (: Stressss ahhhhh! School is stresss will be able to catch up with it? I'm afraid i wanna have really good results but i bet i 'm gonna fail all! I have no confidence no more:( byee now.
XoXo,Desiree Chnatel Han.
I could tell from the start,but you were to blind to realize.
How i wish we could back to the past.
I really miss those days.
I still feel the same,
but you don't anymore.
I could tell from the start,but you were to blind to realize.
How i wish we could back to the past.
I really miss those days.
I still feel the same,
but you don't anymore.